This way to the stars

Weeping over my mediocre grades

As soon as I got home, I seriously felt like weeping.

Due to the absence of that damn driver who chose, of all the days in the week, a weekday, to get married, I had to commute to school for the first time in my college life(I wasn't alone though; Dad insisted on having the maid accompany me, as if I wasn't in college). I have to admit, though, that because of this I now have a great appreciation for our (private!) car, even though the driver seems to love applying the Law of Inertia (read: sudden braking). I never had a greater appreciation for the MRT and LRT lines than I have now; if it wasn't for their existence (though the MRT looks like a dingy sewer next to the LRT lines), I'd be stuck with slow buses and jeepney OR expensive taxis. I totally admire hard-core commuters now, because I never thought that it'd be THIS hard to walk under the hot sun, in the stiflingly humid air.... not to mention the annoying trike ban along Katipunan just when I needed the tricycles most (the driver will be coming back tomorrow).

Also, I now have a greater picture of my grades in Filipino and Botany Lab...which all seem to spell GLOOM and DOOM. Though my grades (thankfully) aren't a depressing row of Ds and Fs, they average on a mediocre, banal, boring, average B. My english and lit grades could be pretty fair, but I haven't received my advisory marks on them yet. Botany Lab is depressing (I mean, I got a 55.5/70 in one set of lab exercises), and Filipino just HELLISH (although I got a rare B+ on one quiz, the others range from C+ to D). Dammit, am I this dumb or what????!?!.

It is only now that I realize how easy my life was in St. Paul. Though we were constantly barraged with the usual multiple-quizzes-and-long-tests-and-projects-a-day, the standards and expectations are not that high. And besides, low grades were always redeemable through The Miracle of Standard Deviation. In college, however, that blessed "adjusting of grades" is non-existent; in other words, we reap what we sow. Argh, I must have been sowing really BAD plants lately, else I haven't used fertilizer that much (hydroponics, anyone?).

I swear, I AM going to raise my grades. I am going to aim for an A (yeah....riiighhht). And that would mean studying for the Botany Lab exam tomorrow, the Math long test on Friday, the Math midterms (omigosh!) on Wednesday next week, the PE midterms, the Lit long exam, the Botany Lec long exam, the list just goes on and on and on and on....

I swear, when I arrive home tomorrow, I will NOT be compelled to weep anymore.

Let's just hope that I won't faint from sheer stress, shall we?

posted by steph @ 8:24 PM